Saying goodbye is never easy, even when it’s time. I cried at my college graduation despite being more than ready to leave—and now I’m feeling the same way about The Real Housewives of New York City ending (at least for now, according to Page Six). The truth is, the show had clearly run its course, desperately trying to spin drama out of thin air in recent seasons.

I can’t speak for all 17 years of RHONY, but I followed the current cast closely—Jenna, Brynn, Ubah, Jessel, Erin, Sai, Racquel, Rebecca—and by the end of last season, let’s be honest, not much was happening. Most of the “drama” revolved around a fake rumor the women spread just to see how far it would go. And yet… I was still hooked!

Do I think it’s crucial for the show to continue with this cast? No. But tuning in every week to see what nonsense they were up to felt like catching up with old friends—the kind you have nothing in common with anymore but still love gossiping about. Maybe watching RHONY in my 30s has replaced the chaotic friend drama of my 20s. Now that I’ve outgrown petty fights, I have the emotional bandwidth to follow the messiness of these women instead—and I’ll miss them. Someone please pick up Season 16! Those are my emotionally toxic besties!